Drown my thoughts, chain of draughts.
Through your blight of nothingness
Through your lack of happiness.

It is nigh time to drink wine?
Is it fine to make her mine?
To find the thread that'd bind?
To align her heart with mine?

Maybe so, shall we go?
To that place filled with grace?
To the sea, ever free?
Under a star, ever so far?

I await for that twist of fate,
To twine this thread of mine,
A part of myself, to another's heart.
The passage of time, always sublime

Maybe for today, I'm invisible to your eye.
Maybe for today, I'm nothing but a lie.

But tonight, I'm just letting it go.
But tonight, I'm returning to the flow.

So now, I'm just going to be laid back.
So now, there's no real need for payback.

There's no real need to ask for more.
I've lived without you, once before.

Summon you my dear, I shall.
My muse, In the very depths of hell.
Come to me, this very day.
Stand by my side, again we shall play.

Inspiration, ideas, words galore.
Help me with them, I implore.
Oh my muse, forgiveness I beg of thee.
Forgive me, listen to my plea.

I have shut you out, for far too long.
Its been bad for you, I've been wrong.
I want you back, by my side.
To once again, write as someone bona fide.

I'm pretty much on a Hiatus when it comes to Poetry, since my dreams, emotions and whatnot have been pretty dark and blank. But I think I can feel it; The dreams. The emotions. The reasons. All of them coming back. Hopefully, maybe I'll actually update this.

Otherwise, I'm sorry if the... "poems" or whatever below are not so good. I was never aiming to exactly please anyone. ^^

I hope the capacity to write 'em comes back.

Sometimes, you thought you knew.
Things that appear, like something new.

Sometimes, you sing, a little song.
Even if, it sounded wrong.

Sometimes you wished, for that special someone.
In the end, it may even be no one.

Sometimes, you might feel like giving up.
Picking up the pieces, of a broken cup.

Sometimes you think, if things might last.
Thinking about, a forgotten past.

Sometimes, you want, to stop the fight.
Hoping someone, would be your light.

In the end, I hope your paths won't diverge.
Over there, two hearts will merge.

My fantasies are where my hopes and dreams are,
Reality is where cruel fate and destiny kicks them afar.
But even as this "battle" rages on.
Life goes on, even when I'm gone.

A catalyst is what I will be,
Making friends, keeping them happy.
Until I find that special someone,
I alone, will be one.

People everywhere, all around me,
Events anywhere, at any given time.

My soul cries for its face,
My heart wails for its pace,
My body screams for a place,
My mind moans for a phase.

And so I die,
Time will fly,
Everything passes by.

Life has its ups and downs,
It goes in leaps and bounds.
We'd never know what we'll find,
Through the threads that bind.

All our fates and destinies,
All our dreams and fantasies.

And so, we have to bide out time,
Life, is but a pantomime.
Words are never sufficient,
Gestures, are ever efficient.

May your friendships last,
And your life, be a blast.

Do take a rest, don't work so hard,
Take a break, don't let down your guard.
There's always time for work and play.
Even if, the skies are grey.

And when finally, you're having fun,
I hope its weight, goes up to a ton.
For time, 'tis something we treasure,
For work, and acts of leisure.

So stretch, rest your eyes,
So, you can see through lies.
And so, I'll go back to work.
All because, my mom's a jerk.

(Last line's just to make it rhyme. She's the best mom in the world. <3)

I may have to go,
But I care for you so,
So you'd better take good care,
Because I can't be there.

I hope you feel safe in your sleep,
And I hope, you don't have to weep.
So there you are, not alone
Maybe, you're just on the phone.

And so, I bid you farewell,
And I hope, you will be well.
For I will return, sometime
Possibly, when the clock strikes nine.

I am but a blank slate
Filled with neverending hate
When all shards of hope
Is but a piece of unending rope

What is this game I play?
What is the price I have to pay?

I cannot wager my heart.
For it is a broken cart.
All of it contents, spilled,
Its purpose, still unfullfilled.


Maybe one day, when my dues are paid.
Maybe, when I have it all laid.
I'll play that little game with you,
I'll play that game, without any clue.

And so I sat there, looking at you,
Your smiling face, always so true.
It never fails to bright up my day,
And for you, I always pray.

I only want you, to be happy,
I have no clue, I want you to be free.
And so, all I do is give you my heart,
Taking care of you, doing my part.

And so, here I shall stay,
Watching you, everyday.
Laying my eyes at you,
My love for you, true.

I know sometimes, I can't be there.
And at times, it leaves me bare.
Knowing I can't be with you,
Knowing I have to leave you true.

If you feel down, hug a pillow and hear me say,
I'll be with you, my love will stay.
And I shall wait for the day we meet again,
Hopefully, the day will not rain.

Know this, that I shall be by your side,
A brother's love, knowing no divide.
My arms are wide, ever open.
Always waiting, never forgotten.

As the days and years start to fly by,
You start to wonder where priorities lie.
The places were your heart might go,
The emotions that may start to flow.

-Written on December, 2006.

I'll be waiting for you,
Patiently by the riverside.
Rain or shine,
I'll always be by your side.

Although I know sometimes,
I can't be there.
Know that I'll pray,
For you to take care.

My feelings for you appeared out of the blue,
At first, I thought it might not be true.
But the pain I felt, gave me a clue,
Those feelings stuck to me stronger than glue.

But still, you're just like any aother girl,
With her own crushes and opinions.
I won't sufficate your life at all,
I won't at all let you fall.

I want you to know that I'll be there,
Giving you much love, much care.
You are somehow just that rare.
Without you, I'll just be bare.

-Written on April. 2006

This fine day, i gave you a gift,
But you merely gave it a lift.
How meaningless can it be,
When its only from me?

I just don't understand.
Where do I stand,
In your world of friends?

You treat it as if it was just some trash,
Flinging it back into my face.
How could you be so brash?

All I did was write my name,
To show that I was sincere.
But did you treat it like some kind of game?
As you barely gave it a leer?

So here I stand,
Silently crying.
My heart can't be mend,
I can't keep on failing.

-Written on Valentine's day, Febuary 14th, 2006. For a good friend of mine.

Sitting alone in the classroom,
Quiet, lonely and angry.

No one looks at me,
No one tries to be friendly.

I place my head on the table,
Feeling broken and disabled.

I sob to myself in dispair,
For I do not even have a lair.

To relieve myself of all this pain,
All my efforts, all in vain.

I planted my fist on the table,
Pushing my self up, feeling unstable.

I took a deep breath, and opened my eyes,
I forced a smile and shook those thoughts by.

-Written on June, 2005.

You do not feel my pain,
You do not care about me,
Yet you say you love me.

What an obvious lie,
What a ridiculous fact,
Why won't you tell me the truth?

You make use of me,
You continue to pain me,
Yield to you i always do.

Release me from this lie,
Relieve me from my pain,
Roll me away from you.

As i walk away from you,
As i try to break free,
Are you the real source of my despair?

I start to have doubts,
I start to feel different
in the end, i see the light

Breathing heavily with no regrets,
Breaking away all links with you,
Banishing myself from the secular world.

-Written on March, 2005

Elements

The strength of the wind gives me courage,
Its strength toppling the strongest of trees.

The many faces of water gives me emotions,
Its harshness and kindness, everlasting.

The hardiness of earth gives me hope,
Its scent still fresh, after a millenia.

The warmth of fire gives me life,
As it flares brightly within me

March, 2005

Point of view.

The shadow of the night gives me comfort,
The light of the day gives me hope.
The strength of the wind gives me courage,
The love from friends, give me the will to live.
~Shaft~

-Written on November, 2004.

As i see the world from my point of view,
Multiple feelings start welling up in my mind.
Love, care, concern, pity, angst and jealousy,
Are feelings that are apparent in the world.
I feel love for beautiful things in the world,
I care for my loved one and my friends,
I pity people who are in a tight spot,
I feel anger for those who hate,
And jealous of people who have better lives.
All these feelings are natural,
But feelings of hapiness and spite,
Are apparent in the world as well.
These feelings are at times controllable,
At times not.
As i write this poem that took years to finish,
With each verse, a bit of pain goes with it.
As I write this final verse,
All my pain has dissappeared.

-Written, November, 2004

Heya

This blog is for my poems, mostly. If I get any inspiration for any, I'll be sure to post it here. For now, I'll have to post my past collection of things, I guess. Here goes.